Born not of Human Will
(left pic: the view of my daily walk to school from home)Here i am, sitting in the lounge @ ENLI bldg, well, lounging. Not feeling like doing work, but which i know i ultimately will, because.. Because.
The last week or so has been exciting and interesting for me.. discovered the Lord's faithfulness in my life! After 25 years and 9months, i finally find out i was an unplanned child while my brother assumes all this time i already knew! This piece of info was such good news to me (ironically) coz it explains so many things that have gone through my mind since i was old enough to think..
that i thought i would die before 18.. that after i turned 18, i thought i would die before i turned 21.. but the Lord met me a few months before i turned 21.. and even after i became a Christian, always wanted to be home with the Lord more than anything else. THough i must put a disclaimer that suicide was NEVER on my mind. Yes i admit, i wld write wills (e.g. economics txt books, CDs and diaries to be distributed) but that was it. So in a way i was jst felt stuck on this earth. LIke i was here because i have no choice or purpose but to live on. But God is so faithful. I mean, who else apart from an all-knowing and loving GOd would tell you 3 years in advance of a revelation like this that you had and had to know that you were formed in His planning and was not a mistake! THough the prophetic word meant little to me then (coz i had no idea what the prophet was talking abt) but now it means so much
'Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God - children not born of natural descent nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God...' John 1:13
Well, obviously i wasn't born of human decision or a husband's will, so i'm left with being born by the will of God. which makes it really cool in a way
Anyway, to anyone who's discovered along the way that you were unplanned or was unwanted as a child in the will of man and was disappointed in any way, i hope u share in this same encouragement and joy, that you were born by the will of an infinite, almighty God who does NOTHING without a plan a purpose.
Talk about destiny. Jesus rules!
posted by Ivy @ 8:52 AM
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