Tomatoian Thoughts

Re-entry Stress Thoughts

Came back from Macau last nite.. reached the dorm at about 8 smthg last nite..

When i was at the airport and heard the familiar filipino accent.. though it felt like a pre-welcome home, i had to remind myself, i'm entering another culture again! I actually felt rather depressed just thinking abt the fact that i'm leaving my friends in China.. will miss being with Waiyi and my ex-colleagues but i guess most of all, the carefree life i was living then! haha!

I guess no matter what, i've come from a culture closer to China than the Philippines so i just miss being able to speak Singaporean - hearing pp with the same accent as i do.. speaking SInglish with close friends, sharing things from Singaporean perspectives because they understand but most of all sharing our thoughts of the future now coming from the same place.

But perhaps it's not just a Singaporean thing.. it's a friend and trust thing.. people you've built enough foundations with to know what you can share and how and that they'd understand. So you feel comfortable and relaxed and be more of yourself! :) I did enjoy however, meeting pp from the other nations over there.. it's always fascinating to hear from different perspectives and I wouldn't ever want to cut that out from my life ever! But at the end of the day, it makes a difference when u still have people that u can come back to and share in your own language .. or perhaps a feeling of home. A place of belonging and rest and acceptance. Just where after the season of adventure, you can still come back home and find rest.

Really going to miss the time of sharing with Waiyi.. fighting over space on the bed.. squishing Bobby the Panda out..stepping into the bathroom with my outside slippers, forgetting to turn of the heater / electric blanket.. and taking like 30 min just to get ready with all teh winter gear!haha. I will keep the memories of laughter and sharing :)

To be with family also, to be as myself, to be a daughter, a sister and now a grand-daughter? to celebrate the joy of GOd's work in our family and just to see what Family's about... How can i not be grateful?

(Family Pic in front of People's Hall in Chongqing)

He has surprised me with joy, providing me with such amazing opportunities to bring me to the world, to bring the world to me in one place (like at the dorm), to experience family as it should be.. all this at a time when i thought i wouldn't have the resources (now that i'm a student) or the ability to do so, He continues to bless me, shower His favor on me and protects me and for nothing i've done. I am safe in His hands!

I have discovered one of the best CDs ever this trip thanks to Waiyi! Ross Parsley's I Am Free! THe following is the lyrics from the song, On My Lips in this CD... and kinda reflects the condition of my heart now:

posted by Ivy @ 12:13 PM