Mid-Autumn Festival Thoughts
Ok, at Paul Pajo's encouragement.. i shall put my thoughts down..so how has SWM been for me? wow.. it's perhaps too much for me to place here.. but the experiences are mulititudinal... bombards your senses.. spiritual, physical.
I guess first and foremost.. it's been a time of self evaluation.. an overturning of the unturned stones, a time of self-discovery.. and seeing how much of God has been in me, and how much work is yet to be done.
Now my classmates are singing with da guitar.. no class this afternoon! yippeess! It's moments like these i like the most..just impromptu.. relaxation, conversation, fun! nice change from organised events...
Just 2 nites ago.. we had a small gathering for Mid-Autumn Festival celebration.. Nana cooked some chinese dishes *yumz* and i got Mooncakes from Raffles Hotel (super EXHORBITANT! imagine.. SGD 10 for ONE mooncake! i mean, telaga! i shall never get the baked ones again.. jst the nice snow-skin ones) and the champagne choc truffle was absolutely yummy!!! *drool*
Anyway, we didn't have a any program.. jst wanted to meet with pp and relax. We went one round of "Which is the Lie".. where u make 3 statements about yourself and 1 being false and the rest have to guess. Here's mine:
1) I was in a convent school for 11 years
2) I was the Head Prefect in my school
3) I was in the netball school team
heheeh.. well most pp guessed 3 (which jst shows how out of shape i am to the pp ard me..hehe) but after that the conversation jst eased off to other topics..the way guys and girls think and eventually we split girls and guys.. interesting coz it's amazing how it naturally progressed and i just totally enjoyed it
My fav moment however was this.. we walked from the dorm to the school in the moon light
it was SOooooooooooooooo beautiful.. and it must have been the first time i noticed my shadow made by non-electric sources apart from the sun..haha
weather was so nice and cool.. and we had great company.. so grate ful for moments like that.
It must have been the most wonderful Sabbath rest i've had since i came here.. i love Sabbath, esp when you know it's right smack in the middle of your busiest time.. because u feel like that's the least u can demonstrate your commitment to God. Before the dinner.. i sauntered off to Greenbelt 3 myself and found a really nice spot at Starbucks facing the flora and fountains... and it started drizzling.. jst imagine that.. the security guard was feeding sparrows crumbs.. really reminded me of the verse in Matt 10:29-3129
"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows ."
If even a stranger would feed the sparrows in the sky, what more our Father in Heaven? God, you are SO good! How could anyone not want to know You?
I sat myself down to the book "Captivating" .. women, pls get this book by Stasi Eldredge, it will speak to the very depths of your soul! and i came to the part where she was talking about her mother and the relationship with her mother.. and it really really made a direct impact on my heart and before i knew it.. i was hot teary-eyed. I was trying sooooo hard not to cry.. coz i'm in STARBUCKS?? but i couldn't help it.. fluid's heavier than my will. I really missed my mum.. really miss her. It's been, 3 years and 2 months since she returned to the Lord and it still seems surreal to me. It still just seems like she's taken a really long vacation.. . Just thinking about the little things she has done for me (tomato shirt, sara lee, milk, times tabling, ice cream after falling asleep w work, reminders not to eat heaty food...) and with me and knowing that I can't see her anytime soon again.. and just appreciate all the more.. what she's said and what she didn't say in those times. Poured my heart out to God.. and I wrote down what i wanted to say to her.. i guess God's the best messenger i can have to her now.
Ok i have to stop now.. man, my tears are getting well trained.. harder to fight back ..haha. I guess one of the great things God is doing for me now is a time to grief over her.. properly.. with time.
I am worth much more than the sparrows in the trees... as cute as they are :) much much more!
Ives
(Left: I post pics of me when i was young.. reminds me that i was at least, once, adorable before and that's how my Dad sees me :))
posted by Ivy @ 11:23 AM
1 Comments:
ivy,
thanks for mentioning my name..if you have trackback enabled I would have trackbacked to this entry hehehe
thanks for sharing...I heard Captivating is getting rave reviews in Manila... it's good to know that you're allowing yourself some to grive... let those tears fall sister...
rgds,
paul
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