Tomatoian Thoughts

Chinese New Year in SG

Have just returned from watchin I Not Stupid Too with my family!

It's a great great show.. once again..i marvel at Jack Neo's ability to know what's happening at the grassroots level.. to grasp what's happening in the minds of the masses, youths, parents, teachers and government authorities. That is truly one quality I admire and look up to him for, the ability to understand and connect with the masses! I wonder how he does it?? How does he know what's "in" with the youths and what's out.. and what goes on in the minds of parents crafted so well and also the ability to know the struggles of teachers and just issues of the heartlanders in general. I am, again, amazed.

Today was abit of a nostalgic day.. went to do our usual CNY first day routine with the exception of church service slotted in between since this year it falls on Sunday! a short summary goes:
1) Breakfast of "Mee Sua" at Ah Peh's place (Dad's side)
2) Church Service @ Amara Hotel
3) Lunch at Ah Gong's place (Mum's side)
4) Run errands
5) Dinner @ AhPeh's with Loh Hei!
6) Movie!

But it was nostalgic coz we went back to the flat unit that i used to stay when i was young (0 to 8 yrs old) . we live in the same block of flat as Ah Peh and today we went down to look at our old unit #09-1413! I actually rang the doorbell coz i wanted to ask the owner (unfortunately no one was in) if we could look in the house. It's been 18 years.. and i was wondering if i would find the place as big as i had felt it was when i was young! I remembered that it was such a nice place to run around in.. so big! but i wonder if that was because we were much smaller sized then. There were so many places to hide.. so many places to explore. Then when we reached the void deck of our side of the flat, that i literally had not stepped there since 18 years ago! I saw the path that i would take to go for my art classes.. to the community service centre behind me, where i got chased by 2 dogs, saw a snake etc.. MEMORIES awash me! sigh.. there was a tug in my heart to recall my childhood.. those carefree days, days of going for art lessons, swimming, piano lessons and of course the not so happy ones of tuition..haha.

Just thought back of everythign that my parents had done for me and brother, to ensure we had the best in education, we were so happy! We were blessed. God was with us, though we didn't know it then. Really I am blessed.

I am 26 yo now.. and somehow, i feel abit removed from that part of my life. It's as if i'm living in a totally environment.. it's like from a true heartlander, i have morphed into a international person. And i enjoy my international 'persona' but there was also something abt the heartlander that i miss.. and looking back, it's almost like i lived two lives.

well, somehow feeling abit sad now, this present moment as i type. a slight feeling of disorientation.. though i must say i really missed the youths, esp when I saw them. It's more like, i didn't hink i missed them, but when i saw them, i realised htat i really wanted to be back here with them! Somehow, am really excited for their lives and all that will happen in their lives! It's hard to describe, but i feel like i'm going into a new phase of my life, where i draw my excitement from the lives of other pp, things happening to them or going to happen to them.. and not so much of what's happening to me now (tho still have lah)

I remembered the days when i used to be so introverted, cautious, selfconsicious when i visited my relatives, but now.. i'm like, whatever!! haha.. i just want to find out how they are doing. God has really changed me somewhere along the way i guess~

Still feeling slightly disoriented.. perhaps its just me flying about too much in a such a short span of time.. not used to this kinda life.. i feel like i've left peices of my life around..haha.. in Manila with my classmates, in my old friends, in my childhood memories and now back here in Singapore. I must say, that it takes time for me to gather my thoughts back again every once in awhile, just to kinda rediscover who i am and what i'm doing. Fairly bizarre state of my mind.. but i;m alrite.

posted by Ivy @ 12:30 AM